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six months in

Monday

Friday marked six months since I moved to Tennessee. Six months. I have lived here for half a year. Somehow I am still living... and not *completely* failing.

First and foremost, I love Tennessee. It is still surreal to me that I live here. I frequently find myself driving into Nashville totally elated and in disbelief that I can just visit my favorite place after a day's work when I used to plan trips months and months in advance. Even running errands in this small town I sometimes catch myself thinking, "wait... I'm in Tennessee."

Did I mention I live in Tennessee?

I talk about it all the time. I know. But if you only knew what I was going through before I got here, you'd understand how much this means to me. That being said, I don't want to screw anything up... and I'm afraid I'm headed down that road. Honestly? I hate where I'm living, I hate my job, I'm awful at budgeting (I'm poor and in denial), I don't keep up with house work (who has time for dishes?), I never work out/eat healthily (although currently I'm eating a spinach omelet with a side of avocado *high fives self*), I've been chronically dehydrated since I moved here (equal parts coffee and alcohol), and I'm having difficulties pursuing my creative endeavors (ugh). I'm sure most of you are thinking "Welcome to the Real World" in which I would reply, "Where's the next exit?"

I really thought I was going to blog more while I was down here to keep friends and family updated on all of my adventures, but this hasn't been the case. There has been a lot of confusion, doubts, and fear of the unknown. These feelings have been overwhelming and keeping me from setting out to do what I think I need to be doing down here. Not knowing where to start has also been hindering my motivation. I was very vocal about similar struggles in one of my posts on instagram.

Regardless of all of this, a few months ago Ethan and I were walking through a neighborhood after attending a writer's round in Nashville. We walked through the same neighborhood that I had walked through a year prior, crying on the phone with my best friend, not knowing what I was doing and scared that I was making a mistake. Fast forward a year plus a couple months, I walked the same street as a completely different person who still doesn't have a clue, but is here nonetheless. That was a profound moment for me in these past few months. I realized that I had gotten myself here, and everything else will come with time. And I'm thankful for everything and everyone that has lead me to where I am right now.

So, six months later, where am I? Still clueless, but with no regrets.

WHY NASHVILLE?

Saturday

Ever since I decided to move to Tennessee, I've gotten nonstop questions asking "why?"

"Why Nashville?"

"Are you a musician?"

"You're not a musician? You don't sing? You don't play ANYTHING?"

"Wait... you're a psychology major?"

"What are you going to do down there?"

"How long are you going to live there?"

"Won't you miss your friends and family?"

"WHY NASHVILLE?"

I'll tell you why. Upon my first visit in June of 2013, I fell in love. I didn't fully realize it until months later when I was planning my next trip down. Nashville made me feel welcome; I was surrounded by the kindest people, live music on every corner, and an abundance of creativity. I always left Nashville feeling inspired and wanting more.

In February of 2014, I was talking to a friend about how I felt lost and alone. I felt like a stranger in my own hometown; completely uninspired, uncreative, and burned out. I woke up every day with the feeling in the pit of my stomach that I didn't belong. On the inside, I was completely dead; it was as though my world was gray and I was just floating by. I had played around with idea of moving back in September of 2013, but I was given the courage to move forward with them on February 23rd.

"NASH PLANS 2-23-14"

This is the cork from the night I sat my parents down and shared my plans (I actually found this while packing for the move and I'm so glad I saved it). This is the night moving became real. I specifically remember texting my friend saying "I might be living in Nashville this time next year."

One year later, here I am.

So, why Nashville? Because at this point in my life, I know this is where I need to be. Do I plan on staying here forever? Possibly. I have no intention on moving back to Chicago, but also can't say this is my forever-home. I also dream of living in Colorado someday. Am I a musician? Not by any means. I song-write for fun and play around on my keyboard, but it's not anything I'm pursuing. I'm a psych major planning on becoming a counselor. Everyone knows Nashville as the "Music City," but it's also known as the nation's health care center. Health care is actually one of Nashville's largest industries, bringing in billions of dollars each year. So, I think I'll be alright. Everyone talks about how the key to happiness involves the people you surround yourself with and living in a place that you love, but few practice what they preach. I decided to make it happen. Of course I miss my friends and family, but sometimes you have to sacrifice the good things in your life to move forward. Moving away doesn't mean goodbye: it's see you later. I have big plans for my life, and moving here was the first step in order to achieve them. My friends and family get that. I have an amazing support system, and couldn't be more thankful to love so hard and be loved in return.

Since June 2013, I've also made trips in October 2013, December 2013, June 2014, July 2014, November 2014, and December 2014. It's now January of 2015, and nothing's changed. I'm so incredibly happy to be right where I am.

This is also a new segment I'm starting on my blog. Chances are if I know you and you live in Nashville or somewhere in Tennessee, you will be approached to answer the same questions. I'm also going to ask strangers on the street or in a coffee shop to do the same. There's a reason behind it... to be continued.

nashville || july

Monday

It's been almost a month since roadtripping to Nashville for my birthday celebration. I'm so happy to have been able to show my friends the city I fell in love with a year ago. We hit the bars on Broadway (shocker), enjoyed pizza + beer at Soulshine (again, shocker), met with some sweet friends for coffee at Barista Parlor, experienced Mas Tacos and their truly delectable Mexican cuisine, got called up to sing on stage at Tin Roof, and I may or may not have rode a mechanical bull (a minute thirty y'all!) at Tequila Cowboy. Oh, AND I met one of my major girl crushes and top 3 blog inspirations in the flesh -- the lovely James of Bleubird. She recently shared the commercial she and her family shot in East Nashville. Keep an eye out for it! It's beautiful. We met the nicest people while visiting -- many who will turn into friends in a few short months after I relocate. Excited doesn't even begin to describe it.

As for the video I made, they're all clips taken from my iPhone. I did my best.

nashville || june

Friday

Well, my camera died the second I attempted to turn it on -- apologies for the poor quality pictures from my dumb phone. Had my camera worked, there would be a lot more to share.

Last weekend I went back to Nashville to scope out my new school *fingers crossed* MTSU. On the way down, we stopped in Kentucky and went on a 2 hour tour through Mammoth Cave. Although it wasn't my first visit, this time had the most impact on me. The caves are truly astounding and I highly recommend them. After all, they are the world's longest known cave system. Yea, you read that right. The world. So that's pretty cool.

After checking into our hotel in Murfreesboro, we got to check out Mayday Brewery, which was a great vibe with live music (big surprise) and a cookout complete with a bags competition going on outside. Their motto: "We try hard not to suck." ...they don't. When dinner rolled around we headed downtown and ate at a brew pub called Bosco's. Their beer selection was fantastic. Their food was fantastic. Our service was fantastic. 10/10 would recommend.
But really, we loved our waitress + she asked for my dad's autograph for her Beer/Homebrewing for Dummies books because she's an aspiring homebrewer. Shout out to our homegirl Ramona.

The majority of Saturday was spent at MTSU. Absolutely loved the school + met so many awesome people. I was seriously impressed by everything down there. Again, fingers CROSSED. Following the campus tour, we headed back downtown and checked out the CMA fest. Second year in a row I've gone to Nashville during CMA weekend by accident. Not complaining though. We caught a bit of Maggie Rose and that girl can SING. She also has a female drummer which is a huge plus....shoutout to Jubes. Even with so many people in Nash, we managed to get a table out on the patio at Soulshine. We stuck it out during the thunderstorm + spent several hours there watching Colby Dee, Stevens Layne, and Hillbilly Casino do their thing. Always a great time at Soulshine -- forever my favorite place. It's tradition.

And Sunday was pretty much perfect because we went to see the Parthenon and spent some time walking around the park before heading to Taco Mamacita's for lunch. Found a new favorite place to go for Mexican food. SO GOOD. I also made friends with the manager so I gotta go back.

So it's pretty much a done deal that come January, I will be living in Nashville. I found my roommates, ALMOST found an apartment (going hunting in a couple months), and job search has commenced. There is a SLIGHT chance that I could be moving as early as August....which is making my head spin. There's so much going on right now that I can't see straight. But first things first: Nashville: July edition. See you next month Music City!

photo diary.

Wednesday

I've decided to start a new series called "photo diary" that will consist of photos I have taken throughout the day. Instead of using words, the pictures will speak for themselves. This will be a good way for me to challenge myself and get creative.

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do.

So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover."

-Mark Twain